PINUS Dinner and Dance was over.
I don't think I deserved that much of claps/cheer when they called my name to present the appreciation token for graduating seniors.
But I would like to extend my gratitude to everyone who did. Thank you very much
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Saturday, March 20, 2010
WHY!!!!!
WHY!!!???
why do I have to see her again!! Why????
Why can't I just go and find a new beautiful/cute/pretty eyecandy and get over this one? What is this 2.8 years admiring the same girl for? Seriously.
Meanwhile, I don't know why I have a particular interest about the psychic power that one of our friends admitted to possess. She has the ability to predict the future and she said I'm gonna get into a relationship soon, as soon as April?
Bearing in my that I hold to the principle that we craft our own destiny, a relationship is just another form of fruit from our attempts in getting into one. At my current rate, unless I break this spell (that's it! maybe it's a spell!! yeah, right... =.= how ridiculous do I sound? haha) or find a cure for my timidity and start on those attempts I won't be able to get any GF, probably not as soon.
But again, this desire (read: what your heart says ) goes against my thought (read: what my mind says) which always keep me contemplating on the pointlessness of getting a GF at my age. I'm not even financially independent yet and I'm a guy. It's also a common sense that GF is just an extra commitment that will take your extra time, maybe money and probably gives you extra stress.
The heart says the other way round when it gives this lonesome feeling whenever I see a happy couple or whenever I see her and how I don't her to be a GF of someone else other than me.
Thanks to this uncertainty caused by these thoughts not complementing to one another, I just walk my way the usual way I would do it. The indifferent me, waiting to get older but not wanting to grow old, waiting to graduate but at the same time, hoping not to graduate this soon.
FML la
why do I have to see her again!! Why????
Why can't I just go and find a new beautiful/cute/pretty eyecandy and get over this one? What is this 2.8 years admiring the same girl for? Seriously.
Meanwhile, I don't know why I have a particular interest about the psychic power that one of our friends admitted to possess. She has the ability to predict the future and she said I'm gonna get into a relationship soon, as soon as April?
Bearing in my that I hold to the principle that we craft our own destiny, a relationship is just another form of fruit from our attempts in getting into one. At my current rate, unless I break this spell (that's it! maybe it's a spell!! yeah, right... =.= how ridiculous do I sound? haha) or find a cure for my timidity and start on those attempts I won't be able to get any GF, probably not as soon.
But again, this desire (read: what your heart says ) goes against my thought (read: what my mind says) which always keep me contemplating on the pointlessness of getting a GF at my age. I'm not even financially independent yet and I'm a guy. It's also a common sense that GF is just an extra commitment that will take your extra time, maybe money and probably gives you extra stress.
The heart says the other way round when it gives this lonesome feeling whenever I see a happy couple or whenever I see her and how I don't her to be a GF of someone else other than me.
Thanks to this uncertainty caused by these thoughts not complementing to one another, I just walk my way the usual way I would do it. The indifferent me, waiting to get older but not wanting to grow old, waiting to graduate but at the same time, hoping not to graduate this soon.
FML la
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
First Interview
Early morning I received a phone call, I was half awake and apparently it was from a company that I applied for, not construction but sales position from some company that I can't remember, probably the UNI Strategic. Can google if you want. And suddenly the caller just asked me question as if it was a phone interview, or maybe it was indeed.
So after 2-3 minutes answering his questions he said, on the paper I might have the things that they are looking for but they needed applicants who were immediate available so they were just gonna keep my application in view until May.
Dunno whether this is a new way of rejecting people but, I'm just glad that at least there is one company that has responded to my application. The response alone is good enough, whether or not I am able to get it is another matter which depends on me.
So after 2-3 minutes answering his questions he said, on the paper I might have the things that they are looking for but they needed applicants who were immediate available so they were just gonna keep my application in view until May.
Dunno whether this is a new way of rejecting people but, I'm just glad that at least there is one company that has responded to my application. The response alone is good enough, whether or not I am able to get it is another matter which depends on me.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Sequel
I was just going for class, and I just took A1 from PGP.
Just I was thinking about her again: "hey, I'm passing RVR, I might be able to see her today".
True enough when the bus was stopping at RVR busstop, there this one very familiar figure.
"OH NOT AGAIN!!"
I pretended to divert my attention away from the window since I was sitting at the left side (where you can see the busstop clearly and the ppl there can also see u clearly).
She boarded the bus with one of her friend (my friend as well), but once she walked in, I diverted my attention to the window again. The seat beside me was empty and how I hope so much that she would sit beside me and at the same time not to sit beside me. They didn't because another seat just right in front of me was empty!
My heart rate became twice of its normal rate, it's was all adrenaline rush all of a sudden. I'm not sure whether she or my friend realized me but I didn't even greet my friend and pretended that who sat just right in front of me was another stranger.
However I was feeling extreme uneasiness, really uncomfortable but yet so exciting and delightful. I know she was gonna alight at the same stop but to avoid face/eyes contact, I got out from my seat before the bus stopped completely and rushed out just as if a person who is late for class will do (and I was indeed late for class though normally I wouldn't care that much.)
I don't know why I have to act like this. I don't even know her that well, We don't even talk much, not in real life nor online, and It's been so long since I greeted her. Real long. I have a principle not to judge on cover, no matter how good looking is the girl I won't sway or give special treatment which will seem discriminatory to others. However, just for her case, my blood pumps like crazy, my face will turn red and hot, and I my confidence will just collapse instantly.
How cutely coward and so elementary school I am.
Just I was thinking about her again: "hey, I'm passing RVR, I might be able to see her today".
True enough when the bus was stopping at RVR busstop, there this one very familiar figure.
"OH NOT AGAIN!!"
I pretended to divert my attention away from the window since I was sitting at the left side (where you can see the busstop clearly and the ppl there can also see u clearly).
She boarded the bus with one of her friend (my friend as well), but once she walked in, I diverted my attention to the window again. The seat beside me was empty and how I hope so much that she would sit beside me and at the same time not to sit beside me. They didn't because another seat just right in front of me was empty!
My heart rate became twice of its normal rate, it's was all adrenaline rush all of a sudden. I'm not sure whether she or my friend realized me but I didn't even greet my friend and pretended that who sat just right in front of me was another stranger.
However I was feeling extreme uneasiness, really uncomfortable but yet so exciting and delightful. I know she was gonna alight at the same stop but to avoid face/eyes contact, I got out from my seat before the bus stopped completely and rushed out just as if a person who is late for class will do (and I was indeed late for class though normally I wouldn't care that much.)
I don't know why I have to act like this. I don't even know her that well, We don't even talk much, not in real life nor online, and It's been so long since I greeted her. Real long. I have a principle not to judge on cover, no matter how good looking is the girl I won't sway or give special treatment which will seem discriminatory to others. However, just for her case, my blood pumps like crazy, my face will turn red and hot, and I my confidence will just collapse instantly.
How cutely coward and so elementary school I am.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Umbrella
And this is not about song from Rihanna
Yesterday was a lovely weather, sweet and light rain after several weeks of scorching and irritating hot days, I woke up early on my free day for a meeting.
I went there without shower since I was quite late, but washed my face and brushed my teeth as basic hygiene, took my books, cap and even umbrella and jacket so that I won't be wet and feeling cold because of the rain.
I took the bus, smsed my project mates saying that I would be late and on the way I inside the bus, I ponder on rain: How lovely it would be if on my way walking towards the same faculty, I'd see her not sheltered under anything, and me carrying umbrella would just stop in front of her, ask her whether she'd hold my umbrella but without any suspicion just like "Hi, I'm sorry can you hold my umbrella for a moment", then I'd just ran away from her. How mushy and cool if that were gonna happen, as I thought along the way.
I was late, around 20 minutes, but only one of my project mates were there. I waited for 10 minutes after another 2 persons came and we started our discussion. The meeting was supposed to be at 9am but they have class at 10am so it was a fairly short one and then after that I was thinking of going back to have a shower before my next class (a replacement tutorial).
On my way back, at the usual long path from SDE, I was carrying my umbrella since it was still raining, I saw a vague figure that looked so damn familiar. I was just trying to deny that view, thinking that it was probably someone else, but the black tank-top with those familiar looking tomboyish pants and tied hair...
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
But it was her,
drenched in the rain, without her glasses so I can't guess that she notices me or not, but all the while she was looking at the floor, listening to her own music, smiling. She just kept walking as if I was not there, even if I was there, it was as if I'm another stranger (even though, I am indeed just as good as stranger for her). My hand kept holding my umbrella, my feet kept walking but I tried to keep looking at her, waiting for her to at least raise up her head so that I could at least smile at her. But she just kept walking, and I just kept walking pass her as well.
Why the hell am I so, as teddy said, timid?
Yesterday was a lovely weather, sweet and light rain after several weeks of scorching and irritating hot days, I woke up early on my free day for a meeting.
I went there without shower since I was quite late, but washed my face and brushed my teeth as basic hygiene, took my books, cap and even umbrella and jacket so that I won't be wet and feeling cold because of the rain.
I took the bus, smsed my project mates saying that I would be late and on the way I inside the bus, I ponder on rain: How lovely it would be if on my way walking towards the same faculty, I'd see her not sheltered under anything, and me carrying umbrella would just stop in front of her, ask her whether she'd hold my umbrella but without any suspicion just like "Hi, I'm sorry can you hold my umbrella for a moment", then I'd just ran away from her. How mushy and cool if that were gonna happen, as I thought along the way.
I was late, around 20 minutes, but only one of my project mates were there. I waited for 10 minutes after another 2 persons came and we started our discussion. The meeting was supposed to be at 9am but they have class at 10am so it was a fairly short one and then after that I was thinking of going back to have a shower before my next class (a replacement tutorial).
On my way back, at the usual long path from SDE, I was carrying my umbrella since it was still raining, I saw a vague figure that looked so damn familiar. I was just trying to deny that view, thinking that it was probably someone else, but the black tank-top with those familiar looking tomboyish pants and tied hair...
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
"Can't be her"
But it was her,
drenched in the rain, without her glasses so I can't guess that she notices me or not, but all the while she was looking at the floor, listening to her own music, smiling. She just kept walking as if I was not there, even if I was there, it was as if I'm another stranger (even though, I am indeed just as good as stranger for her). My hand kept holding my umbrella, my feet kept walking but I tried to keep looking at her, waiting for her to at least raise up her head so that I could at least smile at her. But she just kept walking, and I just kept walking pass her as well.
Why the hell am I so, as teddy said, timid?
Tuesday, March 09, 2010
New Workspace
As, posted on FB with more explanation
I always thought that they problem with my drawing is that I always view from the wrong angle.
Once I finish the details, the angle of which I bend my head to draw always screws the big picture, so I thought of adding my own inclined platform with all available materials so that when I bend my head to draw, the view will be parallel with the drawing..
nevertheless, the drawing still failed after 10++ hours and therefore I'm not gonna show the upright view to anyone.
Yup, just happened that I was going Daiso and saw these woodblocks and carving pens, so I tried to carved but apparently I need sharper pens and a firm mechanic holder. In the end I utilized the woodblocks to serve as the support for the platform..
The platform (black) itself, someone (read: Mike JK) should know best where it came from.
I always thought that they problem with my drawing is that I always view from the wrong angle.
Once I finish the details, the angle of which I bend my head to draw always screws the big picture, so I thought of adding my own inclined platform with all available materials so that when I bend my head to draw, the view will be parallel with the drawing..
nevertheless, the drawing still failed after 10++ hours and therefore I'm not gonna show the upright view to anyone.
My new workspace
Details for incline platform
Yup, just happened that I was going Daiso and saw these woodblocks and carving pens, so I tried to carved but apparently I need sharper pens and a firm mechanic holder. In the end I utilized the woodblocks to serve as the support for the platform..
The platform (black) itself, someone (read: Mike JK) should know best where it came from.
Saturday, March 06, 2010
Wednesday, March 03, 2010
busy day Xo
It's gonna be a hell of a busy day today:
9am meeting for tutorial
10am-12pm tutorial
12-2pm meeting for project
2-4pm midterm
4-6pm duty at yih (ok rest time)
6-7pm free
7-8pm tutorial
8pm onwards go see parents at near east cost
after that faster sleep
class starts at 9am the next day....
WAHLAUUUUHHHHHEEHHHHH
9am meeting for tutorial
10am-12pm tutorial
12-2pm meeting for project
2-4pm midterm
4-6pm duty at yih (ok rest time)
6-7pm free
7-8pm tutorial
8pm onwards go see parents at near east cost
after that faster sleep
class starts at 9am the next day....
WAHLAUUUUHHHHHEEHHHHH
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